Tuesday, 6 February 2018
Snow
'I can never remember whether it snowed for six days and six nights when I was twelve or whether it snowed for twelve days and twelve nights when I was six.'
So wrote Dylan Thomas in one of my favourite little prose poetry books. I read that book every Christmas and it always brings back memories of childhood - which is quite bizarre because I didn't grow up in Wales and it hardly ever snowed when I was young. Like Mr Thomas though I have vivid recollections of snow in my childhood it's just that I struggle to remember how old I was or, indeed, how long it snowed for. So what do I remember?
I can recall sitting on our living room floor playing with my toys. The fire was blazing and the TV was on. My Mum went to look out of the window. There were six of us living at home then so somebody was probably late home. She came away from the window with a look of excitement on her face and took me by the hand and led me to the front door. As she opened it I saw outside an absolute wonderland. Large flakes gentle as angel wings were falling from the sky and were beginning to form a soft carpet on the ground. It was dark and yet the snowfall gave everywhere such a lustre that it brightened the whole lane. Mum picked some up and placed it in my hand. I can still remember the cold feeling as it slowly melted. Mum was never one for the cold and she brought me in soon after that but by then she had given me a magical gift, she had shown me my first snowfall.
I remember opening the door in daylight and the snow being so high that we had to dig our way out. Mum told me that that never happened, that we never had so much snow, ever. I suppose I must have built into my memory something I read in one of my books, or maybe I dreamed it. It is so vivid though.
Being outside building a snowman was wonderful too, but I was quite a wimp and came inside rather quickly because my hands were beginning to sting. I remember taking off my gloves and being amazed at how red my hands were. Mum told me to sit by the fire to get warm and my Granddad told me that I mustn't warm my hands by the fire or I would get chilblains. I had no idea what chilblains were but the stern look on my Granddad's face told me that I did not want them.
That's the other thing that remains in my memory of winters in my childhood - our roaring coal fire. I never remember our house being cold. I have memories of running home from school to a warm kitchen and sitting before the blazing fire. Mum or granddad would toast bread or teacakes on the toasting fork, then melt butter and I'd sit snuggled by the fire to eat them and drink my cocoa. As I grew older I was allowed to make my own toast there. If you have never tasted toast cooked on an open fire then you have never lived.
I remember only a few more snowy winter days as I grew up and none were quite as magical as that very first time. However, I still get a tingle of excitement the minute that I see the first few flakes start to fall. I can remember when both of our children saw snow for the very first time. For our eldest it was on a visit to Malvern to see her grandparents, for our youngest it was home here - and he still talks about it.
Don't ever grow too old to enjoy snow. Snow is for snowball fights, for making snowmen and snow angels. It's to be watched melting in the palm of your hand and for lightening the whole garden through your window.
A number of Christmases ago it snowed heavily the day the children finished school for Christmas. We went out as soon as we saw it and began to have a family snowball fight, our lovely neighbours down the road came to join us. I have no idea who won that fight but I remember a large snowball in my hood dripping down my neck - I suspect my children were the culprits. About a week later my elderly neighbour asked if I enjoyed the snow. She said that her daughter was visiting and they heard the commotion. Apparently she didn't even go to the window but told her daughter 'Oh that'll be Janet' To this day I'm not sure whether to be embarrassed that any commotion would be assumed to be me or pleased that she thinks that if someone was having fun then I would be involved.
What I do know though is that snow is bright, glowing and magical. it should be enjoyed and its beauty appreciated so that one day, if you are a little to frail to enjoy it, you will have memories that make you smile.
Sunday, 31 December 2017
2017 - A (Mostly) Pictorial Review
Well who would believe that we are at the end of another year already? I think I must have missed a few months somewhere. 2017 has been quite a year. There have been some shocks and some wonderful celebrations but most of all, I have to say, it has been filled with love from family and friends, something that this year has made me appreciate so much. Thank you to all of you for helping me through the difficult times and being there with me to celebrate the wonderful ones.
I have been looking back over the photos of the year and I have to say - we did a lot and we enjoyed it, so thank you 2017 for all the fun. Now - the annual pictorial review.
The New Year started with a bracing New Year's Day walk along Crosby Beach
In February we took a trip to the Bronte Parsonage for Rob's birthday - my first year as a Bronte Society Member and Branwell's bicentenary. It was a wonderful exhibition, curated by the wonderful Simon Armitage. We loved it so much we went back to see it again in September.
In February we also discovered the delights of Lunt Meadows a wonderful Nature Reserve on our own doorstep. Well worth a visit if you haven't been.
For some reason I cannot find any photographs taken in March - did I sleep through it? Was it cold and windy and I stayed indoors reading? I don't know - but I'm determined to keep a better record of 2018!
On the 1st April we went to Parkgate, somewhere I hadn't been since losing my Mum - it was one of her favourite places. We had a delicious meal out and a lovely walk and I think I can love Parkgate again.
April also saw us back at Chester Zoo - one of our favourite trips. The meerkats weren't impressed!
We made a trip to the Centre for Alternative Technology in Wales and came back full of enthusiasm to protect our environment.
I have been looking back over the photos of the year and I have to say - we did a lot and we enjoyed it, so thank you 2017 for all the fun. Now - the annual pictorial review.
The New Year started with a bracing New Year's Day walk along Crosby Beach
In February we took a trip to the Bronte Parsonage for Rob's birthday - my first year as a Bronte Society Member and Branwell's bicentenary. It was a wonderful exhibition, curated by the wonderful Simon Armitage. We loved it so much we went back to see it again in September.
In February we also discovered the delights of Lunt Meadows a wonderful Nature Reserve on our own doorstep. Well worth a visit if you haven't been.
For some reason I cannot find any photographs taken in March - did I sleep through it? Was it cold and windy and I stayed indoors reading? I don't know - but I'm determined to keep a better record of 2018!
On the 1st April we went to Parkgate, somewhere I hadn't been since losing my Mum - it was one of her favourite places. We had a delicious meal out and a lovely walk and I think I can love Parkgate again.
April also saw us back at Chester Zoo - one of our favourite trips. The meerkats weren't impressed!
We made a trip to the Centre for Alternative Technology in Wales and came back full of enthusiasm to protect our environment.
April also saw a trip to Harewood House so Amber could see the dresses worn in Victoria - they were rather lovely but also very tiny. I felt huge.
May saw another trip to Erdigg in Wales, and we had lovely sunshine for the trip. We didn't take the carriage ride this time.
May also saw a visit to the Hardman House on Rodney Street, home to one of our best local photographers, It was like stepping back in time and is well worth a visit.
We made a trip to the Anglican Cathedral and went to see my Mum's window in the Lady Chapel. I just love the architecture of Gilbert-Scott's cathedral.
June brought news that made me reevaluate my life, appreciate our National Health Service more than ever and made me determined to cherish every moment. The next day we went to Birkenhead Park and found this little chap - he seemed happy with life.
From Birkenhead Park we went on to The Tramway Museum - we really have so many interesting places on our doorstep.
Early July I had to have some surgery. By the end of the month I was back out and about with a lovely friend who had come to stay but couldn't manage my camera so I'm afraid there are no photos to show. However Sefton Park Palm House and Norton Priory are well worth a visit, as is the music Exhibition at the Pier Head.
August saw us back at Martin Mere, a lovely sunny day and the kids off canoeing.
August also saw another trip to Chester Zoo to see the baby animals, of which there were many. Have I mentioned how much I love Chester Zoo?
In August we took a trip to Nottingham where my husband lived when he was small and went to visit the Attenborough Centre.
We also squeezed in an August visit to Dunham Massey to see their friendly deer. Had rather a lovely day there.
We also got our daughter's super A level results in August, guaranteeing her a place at the university of her dreams so it was time for celebration.
In September I began a course of radiotherapy which slowed me down a little so there are no photographs for September either. The course was not so bad and I got to ring a bell to say I was done and all clear in October so September was a good month.
Mid October saw us back exploring with a visit to the People's History Museum and the wonderful John Ryland's library in Manchester. We all went to the Museum of Science and Industry to the Robotics exhibition in Manchester for my birthday - but guess who left her camera at home?
November saw us back on Crosby beach, though quite what the Iron men were up to while we were away I don't know!
At the end of November I took a solo trip to Martin Mere for a brisk winter walk. The birds seemed pleased to see me.
At the beginning of December we took a trip to Speke Hall to see it decorated for a Victorian Christmas. It was rather lovely.
Looking back at all the photos, visits from friends, football matches and cinema trips, it has been a rather action packed year. We have been very lucky. Throughout this year the main thing that I have learned is that things don't count - only people do. I've also learned that my Mum was right that there is no point worrying about tomorrow you should just sit back and enjoy today.
I hope that your year has been a lovely one and that you are ready to enjoy the New Year that is coming. Look for the good in every day, it is there. Cherish happy moments and don't forget to say I love you.
I wish you all a joyous, healthy, love-filled 2018 xxx
Thursday, 28 September 2017
And Still We Go Supporting
And still we go supporting
The rain falls with cruel intent
The cold bites through to the bones
Bones weary with age and seasons past
Aching each step as we climb
For the seat with the clearest view
Tea in hand to fight the wind
The weather tries to beat us back
And still we go supporting
And still we go supporting
Defence slackens, a foolish slip
To leave the keeper, open, bare
Another ball flies through the net
Yet in the crowd is no despair
We battle back, regain control
A lucky break, opposition through
A second goal, to pause our cheers?
And still we go supporting
And still we go supporting
Because our hearts fill with belief
Because that team it fills our dream
For we remember better times
The goals, the roars, the cheering crowd
The shiny cups we held aloft
Because we do not doubt our boys
Because we know they will achieve
And still we go supporting
The rain falls with cruel intent
The cold bites through to the bones
Bones weary with age and seasons past
Aching each step as we climb
For the seat with the clearest view
Tea in hand to fight the wind
The weather tries to beat us back
And still we go supporting
And still we go supporting
Defence slackens, a foolish slip
To leave the keeper, open, bare
Another ball flies through the net
Yet in the crowd is no despair
We battle back, regain control
A lucky break, opposition through
A second goal, to pause our cheers?
And still we go supporting
And still we go supporting
Because our hearts fill with belief
Because that team it fills our dream
For we remember better times
The goals, the roars, the cheering crowd
The shiny cups we held aloft
Because we do not doubt our boys
Because we know they will achieve
And still we go supporting
Friday, 21 July 2017
Morte Doctor (with apologies to Tennyson)
So all day long the noise of battle roll'd
Among the Twitterers, through evening news
Until the Doctor's TARDIS, flown by man
Had fallen, like Gallifrey, about its Lord,
Capaldi, then, because his wound was deep
The bold Chris Chibnall uplifted him
Capaldi, last in a line of Doctors male
And bore him to a forest, across a field
Regenerating him to woman brave
That stood in dark wood of silent trees
On one side lay adventure in TARDIS blue
On another a great hoard of gynophobes
Then asked the wise one clearly
Does the sequel of today unsolder all
The goodliest fellowship of famous men
Whereof Whovians hold record?
Do the men you loved sleep such a sleep?
Think you that nevermore at future time
Shall we be delighted by heroic deeds
From TARDIS console entered?
The world would perish were womankind so weak
Timelords regenerate to save once more
The man so smitten through the helm
Continues with a mind that is the pride
Which tumbles forth and cries
Behold, she IS the Doctor
Sunday, 18 June 2017
It is a beautiful World
When I was in my late teens I had a copy of The Desiderata by Max Ehrmann on my wall. I read parts of it most days, all of it some. The past few days the last lines have been coming to mind
'With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful, strive to be happy'
At the moment, listening to the news and following social media, it is easy to believe that the world is a dreadful place and that everything has gone wrong. Don't be swung. I would advise everyone that when it all gets too much just stop reading it. Often, when I fear it is affecting my perspective and mental well being, I stop watching the news for a few days and take a social media break. I find it helps, just being in my own little world and knowing that everything there is normal.
In the past few weeks I had some bad news - not devastating, more inconvenient really. Initially I was a little miserable and sorry for myself - "It's not fair, why us again?" Then I stepped back and looked at it rationally. The news wasn't dreadful and, if looked at from the right perspective, was far better that it could have been and really not worth the fuss I was making. I have met some amazingly supportive people because of it who I wouldn't have otherwise met. I have found out how brilliant my friends are too.
Despite the media trying to convince us that the world is going to pot it is actually doing pretty well There are still plenty of things that we need to work on to improve it further but it's still in much better shape that it was in my childhood.
I have decided to focus on the positive things that make the world a better place. And so, I have made a list:
*my lovely husband and children
*my amazing friends
*my beautiful garden
*my fantastic football team who I am sure will do great things this year
*the brilliant friends at my fantastic football team who put up with me screaming like a banshee without saying a word
*my beautiful beach, wonderful walks, glorious sunsets and the Iron Men who'll listen to you tell
anything without breathing a word
*Haworth, which welcomes me back every year and whispers something new of my beloved Brontes
*my books and poetry
*my beautiful piano and all the music I can play
*the blue skies and sunshine that smile when I go out
*The rain that plays tunes on my window and lets me dance in puddles
*Chester Zoo with all their wildlife conservation reminding me again that people care
*The National Trust preserving homes so that I can visit and pretend that I am in an Austen novel and
Colonel Brandon is just around the corner
*Lacy tablecloths, china tea sets and afternoon teas
I really could go on but I'm probably boring you already. Try making your own list and you'll see that your world is a beautiful place too x
Thursday, 18 May 2017
The Wonderful World of Clocks
Anybody who follows my Twitter account knows that I have rather an obsession with clocks. Proper, real, analogue clocks, not those digital imposters. You may wonder what it is that I find so wonderful about time pieces - well, I shall try my best to explain it to you.
For me clocks are reliable, they have honest faces and they practically smile at you from churches and towers up and down the country. They are a memory of happy times, a promise of hours to come, they are a tradition and a future. In short, they are just perfect and wonderful.
The first clock I ever really remember was a similar shape to the one above but made of proper non polished wood. It was where I learned to read Roman numerals and where I was quizzed about my time telling. The clock was my Grandad's retirement present and adorned our mantlepiece throughout my childhood. Every Sunday there was the ritual of winding it up for the week. This was always done by my grandfather no matter how many times I asked to do it. It could be overwound he told me, it was very delicate, perhaps I could do it 'When I was a grown up' Sadly, by the time I was grown both my Grandad and the clock had passed away.
Other clocks that loomed large in my childhood were the clock on the Royal Liver Building and the one on Big Ben's clock tower. The Liver Building clock was a sign that the long bus ride to Liverpool was finally at an end and I had made it without being bus sick! I loved seeing that clock.
When I was 8 my parents took me to London and I was so excited to see Big Ben - I didn't know it was a bell then and thought it was that wonderful clock that towered over the city, big and strong, making sure everyone in London arrived at their destination on time. I don't know how many times I made my parents walk past it that holiday just so that I could see it again but they were very patient. Eventually my father bought me a postcard of it and told me that I didn't need to walk past it again because I could carry it with me. I kept that postcard until I was 21.
I can remember the excitement of being bought my first watch, which was basically a wrist clock, a big face with clear numbers, two hands, no second finger to confuse me, just a very large face with a leather strap to fasten it around my tiny wrist. I spent the whole day looking at it proudly, watching each minute pass, Goodness knows what I missed that day.
Then, in my teens, came the advent of the digital watch. The hideous, impersonal, unfriendly digital watch. I got one, everybody had one. I hated it. It was unfriendly and controlling in my view. On my wrist clock I could watch the hands moving as the face smiled at me - on the digital watch there were just the flashing dots in the middle counting the seconds of my life away. To this day I hate digital clocks and watches. I know they are supposed to be more accurate but to me it's like taking my mother away and giving me an android trained to cook perfect meals, answer every homework question and have every bedtime story ever told in their memory banks - it's very good but I'll keep my mother thank you. You could offer me a digital clock made of solid gold and I'd swap it for a discount store analogue one that smiled Good Morning every sunrise.
I am quite open to viewing wonderfully scientific and historical clocks and one of my big ambitions is to travel to Prague to see their wonderful Astronomical clock. It was installed in 1410, is the 3rd oldest in the world, but the oldest one still operating. Just look at the photograph (courtesy of Wikipedia) - how truly wonderful is that? Maybe your digital wonders can tell you all the same things but they will never be as beautiful.
There is something reassuring about a clock. If I arrive in a new town or city and see a huge clock smiling down at me then I know that I am safe and it is a nice city. If I arrive and see a digital clock counting down the minutes of my life, then I distrust that city and am immediately on my guard.
There are so many wonderful clocks around the country so, next time you are out and about, look up for them and I promise you'll find that they smile at you and say 'Welcome Stranger, spend some time' for, indeed, time is all we have.
Wednesday, 15 February 2017
In The Midst of Life, We Are In Death
In the midst of life
We are in death
Is what they always say
As we stand in black
To mourn a life
So cruelly stole away
You must not break
But learn to bend
For oft it will be so
But heartache feeds you
Makes you strong
It is through loss you grow
And so it goes
Throughout our time
Lives end and new ones start
And if you're lucky
Now and then
Some stay within your heart
I have no fear
Of death myself
What will come, will come
I'll either be in Heaven
Or else that's it,
Life's done
But what I fear
Most of all
What preys upon my mind
Is the thought
That I could one day be
The one who's left behind
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